When the walls start breathing.

2007-07-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

So dishonestly,
just leave a note.

Bye Bye Baby.

2007-07-21T10:37:00.000-07:00

It's a broken hallelujah.

2007-07-20T01:43:00.000-07:00

Okay, yeah it's not a crab.
It's a prawn.
The feelers are not an exaggeration.

Vineeeeeeee,
thanks for the pretty cupcakes! (:
They were yums. Hhaha.

2007-07-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

Listen to Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah.
The song's very sad. ):

I never thought it got this serious.
My 24 hearts fell.
I don't know why I reacted the way I did.
Sometimes I wish I could hold your shoulders and shake you.
Shake you until your head rolls off.
Shake you until you finally wake up.
What is it you're doing with me?
Why do I feel like I gave up something for nothing?
Don't you see how much I left behind for you?
How you lied, how you sold my trust away for coins.
How I thought I could put that all aside,
And I did, for awhile it stopped stabbing me.
All I want is a little appreciation.
But I guess for someone like you,
it's a little too much right?
You failed to call me when I'm sad.
You failed to hold me when I'm scared.
You failed to reassure me when I'm wavering.
You failed to love me the whole time.

I should start taking care of my turtle,
Now I know how neglect feels.

I remember how I used to count the number of times we fought,
and use that as a gage of how much we've been through.
And then again,
manipulate that to convince your friends that this stc girl is good enough.
Today, I didn't have an answer.
When I asked myself why I'm fighting so hard.
Why I had to make myself believe it, when I tell my friends we're fine.

You know that I could go on.
But if it's too dramatic for you,
then I'm sorry.

Dear Something corporate.
I wish you'd come to my house,
and perfom a sappy love song for me.

2007-07-16T07:21:00.000-07:00

Nothing gets unnoticed.

Through these two,
I realise my inner ahlian is blooming.
Die!
Perish!
Get out of my liiifffeeee.

I had to draw a crab today.
It took me more than 15mins.
And now I feel shitty about sitting for my bio pract.
Cause I think I know nothing.
I'm just following what people do.
So if they're an idiot,
I'm a idiot.
So bio friends,
Please don't be idiots.

I'll probably post up a picture of my crab,
after I scan it in.
I'm quite proud of it.
Its just that kind of feeling that,
you did it entirely on your own,
and it's like the fruits of your labour.
Though it's far from realistic.
I hate prawn legs.
Or the swimming things lah.

Did you know,
Insects are derived from Prawns.
Like ehh, walau.
Try and cheat us ah.
So when we're eating prawns,

we actually eating insects also ah.
I mean afterall,
their bodies has the same stuff inside, right?
Hmm. Gross.

My girlfriend just told me,
That we shouldn't meet up for one month.
Just because she woke up one day,
and decided to shave all her sides off.
Awesome lah,
And now I have to pay the price as well.

2007-07-15T04:13:00.000-07:00

Just watched some bio thing.
Omg, it's damn sick.
Our brain is white you know.
And the way the person was disecting it,
it looked a lot like a piece of cake.
I should so show it to Mrs Leong.
=l

I wish I had a better camera.

Flowers are pretty.
I like flowers.
Thanks darling.

Highlight of my Sunday.
Lalala ------ You.

I finally caught jlc on Hbo.

Natasha's perth sch came to perform.
And the singing part was awesome.
Everyone was like mesmerized,
And that was stc the quietest I've heard.

I can finally sign in to friendster and msn. (:
Welcome back, life.

So yes. My weekend was alrigggght.
I bought 2 bras,
but no not from Calvin Klein,
the remaining designs were sucky.
La senza's undies are superr adorable.
They had hearts with wings on it!

I got myself a pair of jeans
and altered my frenchconnection top.
So yeah, this takes away my grumpiness.
For awhile.

2007-07-13T05:30:00.000-07:00

When the sun shine
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath, I'mma stick it out 'til the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella

Annoying song, but the lyrics quite sweet ah.
Ella ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh.

If I had 24 hearts, they would be loving you.

Well Friday 13th.
It held up it's reputation, I must say.

I'm sorry for blaming you,
for everything I couldn't do.

When you kiss my back,
I shiver.
Just don't say anything,
cause you'll spoil it all.

There's so much talk about sex recently.
Pc -Sex talk, cme -sex talk.
Fareast with FL and Hw -sex talk.

And I so have the same watch as damai WD. (:

2007-07-12T04:25:00.000-07:00

I think that she knows.

2007-07-10T03:06:00.000-07:00

My heart started pulsating,
so hard and so fast I could hear it in my ears.
My legs muscles seem to malfunction,
and I felt almost paralytic, almost.
Every damn step I took,
was with a question in mind.
Will she think this is alright?
Will she notice me this time?
As if the smallest details would make her change her mind.

The usual tingling feeling sprinted along my nerves.
But this time with exceedingly that much epinephrine.
Is my shirt in place?
Do I look pretty enough?
Is my hair flying the right way?
And most importantly,
Are we still friends?
The next thing I knew,
my shirt was damp in cold sweat.
I felt particularly handicapped,
and suddenly I just couldn't walk straight.
My hips were going this way and that,
in a berserk spasm.
Are we still friends?

2007-07-07T08:20:00.000-07:00

Okay my fringe looks weird.

Syf was pretty bad.
I mean stc should be pretty embarassed yo.
If I were the principal of stc,
I wouldn't be holding an event just to show we're not rich enough to get a better sound system.
It's like a display of washing out undies in public.
But then again,
I don't think I have my face look like acid fell on it,
so I guess she needs whatever she "has" to show off.

Okay yes,
from the two pictures,
you can tell I need a camera.
So I decided to come up with a plan.
- Save 2 bucks everyday.
I thought about this for pretty long okay.
Giving up 2 bucks would mean I've no money to have recess.
Which is such a goood thing
cause now I got a motivation to stop eating.
Putting into consideration the 1 buck that goes into the "Big party" envelope.
Nah ah, no more money.
No more Orangey bacon thing.
No more Kickapoo.
No more Chicken patties.
No more Nuggets.
No more jelly.
No more Fish.
No more Fries.
No more starchy tofu.
So the next time you see me about to buy any of the above,
Please reinforce my want to have a camera.

Todays 070707.
I wanted to wear green out today.
But I think I'll look silly cause..
I don't know?

This Paul is really starting to give me the creeps.
Just read this okay.

" Hey I think I have another reason.
I think that I am dying soon.

I have been coughing out blood non stop since the end of june.
I think I have tb.
But I'm afraid of going to the doctors
I am only 17
I think it's better not to know the results then regret later.
But don't worry
I will live each day to the fullest
But it would be great to get to know someone nice like you before or if I pass on
and you are not gay or lesbian or anything at all
its only right to find out why I wish to be your friend.
But I am sorry that I can't give you 5 reasons.
Perhaps this reason is good enough.
But if this still doesn't satisfy you.
Then I am sorry I can't think of more.
But making friends with out would be a dream come true.
I hope you would change your mind now.. probably..."

AND.

"I guess its because I'm lonely.
Ever since my mum died when I was in Primary4.
I felt that a part of my life was wrenched away from me
I thought that by making friends with people like you
I would have some joy in life.
I know for a fact that you are a nice person.
Therefore I really hope that you would be my friend"

AND.

"Hey looks as if you won't give me a chance to be your friend.
But I guess its okay.
I will wait for you.. patiently..
Till the day you accept me..."

So tell me would you be freaked out?
And like omg. I don't even know who the fuck he is?
I should like call the police or something.
Hahahah.

Eh, you know what's so sad.
Having nothing to talk to your girlfriend about.

2007-07-05T00:55:00.000-07:00

They're so cute right?
And it's so comfortable. (:
I wish I could wear them to sch,
and make myself look more like I geek than I already do.

I was digging through my closet,
trying to find my suspenders,
but instead I found this.
Hahaha, I have absolutely no recollections of this,
until, yeah lah until I saw it.
Maybe thats why I never wore it.
Now I remember I bought it in P6. Haha.
Even the price tag was still on lah.
I would've preferred it if it was pants,
but ohwell.
I found something new.

The subway outlet at Far east is really taking the suggestions well.
Their service is so much better now.
I don't know about the other days or timings,
but the past two days I've been going at around 330,
and it's so much more inviting now.
Maybe also cause there's two quite hot eurasian guys lah.
That makes the motivation for me to walk all the way to Fareast.
Hahaha. Cold cut is the bommbbbb.

I would suffer many sleepless nights,
and make my hands nice and smooth.
So that maybe they'll be good enough for you to hold.

My girlfriends tell me I think too much.
My parents tell me I don't think enough.
And by telling me that I'm thinking the wrong way,
is just saying I don't have enough brains to think the right way.
Which is sad, really.

My comp is bugging me.
It doesn't let me sign in to friendster OR msn OR yahoo games
Which means major screw up in the nearrr future.

Syf night tomorrow,
I don't like the idea of wearing anything else to sch other than..
Yeah well, the school uniform.
It's going to be like walking down a runway,
and it's judgement day.
Which sucks, for people like me.
Who think we're a little too fat for our own good.

Vinee ah, are we still wearing suspenders?
Cause I just realise I have 2,
So I could lend you one if the beige one doesn't work out.
Msg mee wheeen you seeeee this.

I'm in a chatty mood today. Haha.

Hanwei and I had a good talk during Eng mass lecture.
Or maybe I just haven't been talking to her much.
So choose okay.
What would you want your girlfriend to call you?
Baby,
Darling,
Dear,
Sweetie,
Love,
Bea, ( short form of baby in case you've never come across it )
Honey
or Lovely?
I still vote for Baby.
Though it sounds awfully mushy,
and my hair would totally stand if I hear some girl calling another girl that.
But even still...
aiyah I stand by Baby lah. Haha.
No explanation.

Hw says guys like to call their girlfriends "sweetie"
Hhahahha, I think its too "betty boop"for me.
Don't you think?
Totally reminds me of curls and corsets.
Which is what betty boop is famous for lah. Hah.
I hate chinese guys who calls their girlfriends "Ma zi"
Think we what, donkey ah.

I want to go shopping yo.
I still haven't bought the boxers.
You know,
Calvin Klein has some damn big sale.
The bras cost like 20 per pair.
I mean I know this sounds a little off lah,
like why the hell am I talking about bras.
But omg 20bucks for Calvin Klein?
Is it christmas or what?

My sis bought like 3 at a shot or something.

Yeah okay. Bye.

2007-07-03T03:32:00.000-07:00

Apple or Orange?
Red or green?
Elmo or cookie monster?
New year or christmas?
My bag or yours?
Rose or dandelions?

Will someone please tell me?

Spoonge.
You should hear it when she says it.
Super adorable.
And my heart melts till there's nothing left to feel.
It's just some things that when you look at it,
It makes you go. Awwwwwww.
Haha

Lynn is quite a friend. (:
Thanks for accompanying me today.
I think I would have died if you didn't come.

Would you rather go to jail for two months,
or eat your own shit?
I'd rather go to jail.

2007-07-02T00:05:00.000-07:00

Mango Lingo is the besssst.

So okay today is Youth day.
And for no apparent reason,
I'm feeling so fucked up.

Shopping on Sat.
Walked quite alot.
But I wanted to stay at Bugis street longer.
There was quite alot of interesting stuff that I didn't stopped to see.
Oh wells.
I regret not buying the cap from f21.
And the jacket.
I bought a thing which I don't know
if I'm supposed to wear it as a dress or a top.
My sis says it's a dress. hmm.

And I bought this super cute pair of shoes.
It's like. those oldschool kind of shoe?
The kind you wear in Primary sch.
Hhaha, super cute.
I shall go back in Sept to see the new designs.

Okay, I'm still feeling so erknejnfnw inside.

2007-06-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

Take a look at your girlfriend.
Have you seen anything better than that?

2007-06-26T06:48:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: March 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.
You're good at so much - you never know what to do.
Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.
You are destined for a life of travel and fun.

Your strength: Your likeability

Your weakness: You never feel satisfied

Your power color: Bright yellow

Your power symbol: Asterisk

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I saw this on Hanwei's blog.
And I did it,
even though I normally wouldn't.
Hmmmm.
I never feel satisfied.
It's scary to admit,
but pretty damn true.

2007-06-26T05:56:00.000-07:00

If you could stay tonight,
every thing will be alright.

I miss esplanade.
And the person I spent my time there with. (:

I like my new chem teacher.
I understand her when she says Reduction.
Maybe, just maybe
I might pass prelims.

Serenade.
–noun
1. A complimentary performance of vocal or instrumental music in the open air at night,
as by a lover under the window of his lady.

Would you perform a serenade?

2007-06-23T08:23:00.000-07:00

I had to put down my pride,
for the sake of this. Ha.

Super powers. haha.

So I did go down to support the new bdiv.
And it's pretty sad to watch them play when you're not part of it.
Or rather, no longer part of it.

Don't worry Khoon and Aish,
they'll get better. (:
Faith yo.
Hahah.

You know I have this thing about accepting myself being fat.
Well, for those I talk to often lah.
You would know.
And after so long, I guess I'm just comfortable with it,
though truely accepting is tough.
Hmm, but today.
I got complimented.
I was called plumpy.
I mean yeah its still means you have extra baggage,
but which would you rather be.
Fat or Plump?
Plumpy sounds pretty cute too.
Hhahaha.
Okay, I kinda lost my sight on what I was trying to get at.
But yeah plumpy.

Did I spell plump right?
It looks so seperated. Like p lump.
Okay, moving on.

I got burnt today.
Out of all my attempts at trying to get a nice tan this hol.
Today's one was the most successful.
Though I must say,
it's a little overdone. =l
I might peel.

Hanging out with Mel Amelia and Jl is funnn.
Hahaha. Amelia's the best at being silly.
And it's the type of silly that you know is so silly that its not funny,
but yet its that extent of silly that you start laughing.
Get it? Hah.
And now its got me thinking,
how much I missed out on them this whole time.
(: I'm glad we caught up, loves.
Mahjongggg, and tues is Just follow law?
Which Mel and Amelia finds it so funny that they started laughing + crying
just with the mention of Just follow law.
Imagine Jl + me + stunned.
When were our friends that hysteric?
I guess I'll find out on Tues.

Its the 24th tmr.
Vinee gave me a heart. (:
It was pretty and sweet.
I'll eat it tmrr!
Oh, its chocolate by the way.
I owe her a letterrr.

Ohyeah, how can I forgettt.
I got a new phone!
Ultimate love.
Next : Camera.

Tlw came to study for awhile on.. when?
We did 4 emaths paper2 questions in 1 hr plus mins.
Haahha. I surprised myself.
I thought I wouldve fallen asleep.

When the clock strikes 12,
I can forget your existence.

Omg, I blogged a lotttt.

And I've been watching Miami Ink a lot lately.
why do people get tattoos of coi fish?
I mean, it's like so red orange and gaudy.
Not to mention, oriental. Icks.
Ironically, I would love to get a chinese character done.
or wings that would cover my entire back. Haha.
Aiyah, its nice to dream sometimes.

Run away train,
never coming back.

2007-06-21T04:53:00.000-07:00

start getting used to it.
Have to start getting used to it.
Man, I never thought it would be this difficult.
I need to stop exploiting people for emotional support.
And letting them think I was really into it.
But I can't help it eh?
At least I can admit I'm insecure.
Okay more like Really insecure.
Aiyah,

I'm satisfied for today.
And I can use this satisfaction to keep myself happy for the next 1 week.
I hope.

It's not what you think it is.
People like Limsingh would probably think I'm "wanking"
But no, it's just shopping.

Nothing can beat a big Mango sale.
I walked out feeling so proud because I grabbed the best deals.

And, shopping is realllly good exercise.

2007-06-15T22:48:00.000-07:00

Today, I was or am very damn very damn pekchek.
Omg. Seriously.
I was angry to the point that I could cry.
I hate that kind of crying,
cause it really hurts.
Not erm the unliteral hurt,
but the literal physical hurt.
I don't know why.
OMG. O.M.G.

My inability to perform well has caused a lifetime of loss
that I could never make up.

What is it with Saturdays and messed up plans?

Paul is a freak.
And gay.

2007-06-15T02:12:00.000-07:00

Action, reaction baby.

2007-06-14T05:52:00.000-07:00

2007-06-12T04:39:00.000-07:00

I wish I could scream at you.

Everyone's being a bitch.

Explaining would take too long,
and I would have lost you by then.

Sighs.

------ ---. ------ ---. ----.
I bet you can't figure that out.

I wish everyone would stop asking me if I'm okay.
What can I say,
"No, I'm not."

Scanned quite a lot of shit in today.
They're a little blur and outdated.
But yeah, there used to be the whole wooha on taking neoprints.
And I never figured out why.

Everyone says they're there when I need them.
But are they really?
Were you really?
So how many would sit down with me over coffee
just to hear me blab about life.
I guess it kinda explains itself.

2007-06-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

I swear the sun has something against me.
I went down to the swimming pool like twice,
when it looks like sunny from my window upstairs.
But nooo, all it took was 3 mins for me to get changed,
walk out my room,
get in the lift,
get out the lift,
walk to the pool.
And somehow the sun decided to run.
Now the guard totally thinks I'm some weird kid.
Whatever people.

ANYWAY.
Vinee and I are gona get a tan.
Like an artificial tan. Hhahah.
There's like some new place in cine,
it's not open yet.
But we're gona go when it does.
Hahah. I just hope I don't die like the girls in final destination3.
So sad man.
To die naked, and such an ugly death.

There's so much stuff going on on the 23rd, 24th and 25th.
That I can't even remember what.
I'm so pathetic.
So much stuff I want to do.

1. Get a tan
2. Make the present
3. Play mahjong with May
4. Eat laksa and swensens with Flz
5. Go shopping at central
6. Go shopping
7. I haven't seen Mel since the hols started
8. Get Tumble's protector from Mango
9. Play netballllllll/ or just exercise
10. Cook pasta for my darling
11. Go watch Amelia and the rest for the src carnival
12. Buy a camera
13. Get my mum to buy me a new phone
That should be all.

FLZ!
I know whats the fourth thing we're supposed to do!
Watch movie!
Right!
Haha, I think Harry potter.
Ferlai thinks I became more ahlian lah.
Wahpiangzsxz. hOw kAn eUuz saEe mOii lIike tAtt.
Hahaha, I'm kidding.
But yes, I do admit I need to get rid of lahlehlormeh.

Today I packed my table.
Tomorrow I'm going to pack my room.

2007-06-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

Touch the ball with your leg.
May is dirrty.

2007-06-07T05:37:00.000-07:00

The second week of holidays is reaching an end,
and I have yet to accomplish anything.

Im proud of me darling, I am.

2007-06-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

Why do you always have to be this way.

2007-06-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

Debbo is so cute.
She sent me a message at 519 am.
"Hi mo. I miss you. I hope you're doing okay.
This christmas, I'll write you a card again. :D"
Eibbedbed's so cute right? (:

Watching XNIJ play makes you miss playing netball. A lot.
Haha, cause they make it look so easy.
Their long passes, the way they fly.
Hmm. But being scorer is pretty boring.
Quite stress also. Hahah.

I miss playing netball.
Omg how?

Aish Khoon and Teresa are at msia!
Doing cip, teaching the kids a new sport.
And probably building them a new library or sth.
Hahah. I hope when they get back,
we could play balllll.

May has sexy legs. Heehee.
and wait, I thought you guys drawed the game?
Why you cry?!

Wake up, school, home, eat, sleep, wake up, eat, sleep.
Wake up, school, home, eat, sleep, wake up, eat, sleep.
Witness my life becoming a routine.

It's been so long,
Now you just think that you do.
One day, you're going to wake up,
and finally realise.
When they day comes,
I'll be weeping.

Okay I'm going to do up the other blog,
because this one is irritating me.
I can't change the colour of the date,
and the colour sucks.
Hmmm.

2007-06-02T11:25:00.000-07:00

I'm tired.
Real tired.

2007-06-01T19:59:00.000-07:00

I was just reminded of my something corporate days.
Never fails to emo-en me.
And so I had their songs on repeat for the whole of last night.
Until Tumble's battery went flat. ):
I was just thinking, and thinking, and thinking.
Thinking so much,
That I wish my brain had burst,
because I didn't want to wake up today.

It's just some of the days when you don't feel like talking to anyone.
and you don't feel like smiling just to show you're okay.
I get that a lot,
and I predict more ahead.

I just don't get it.
I hate sounding like a typical troubled teenager,
but I still feel myself succumbing to such 'temptations'.

I wish I was strong.
And this is sounds too similar to something cheesy
that you would find in the Joy Luck Club.
but seriously.

Haiyah okay.
Emelia needs to stop being self centered.

Anberlin and Copeland's coming to Sg
And I didn't know?!
Their gig's this sunday,
and it's 80 at the door.
I want ttttoooo gggggooooooo.
Why can't my prince come riding on a horse,
to take me away sooner?! ._.
Okay so maybe I don't dig copeland or anberlin,
like really dig it.
But it's the thrill of attending a gig,
which I haven't done so in the longest time.
Why am I such a loser?
Where is Todd when I need his company?
Hmmm.

You know the students in msia has already started studying for o's.
Like their hangout place is now the library?
I wonder if that would ever happen to me.
Hahaha.

2007-05-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

All my hair's gone.
But surprisingly, I'm not bald.

Kiss me here,
Hold my hand,
And let me feel like I’m the only one.

Stayhome thursday.
Now now,
I wish I'd wish for something thats not for me.

You’re a thief and a witch.

If you don't shoot it,
how am I supposed to hold it.
Is that alright with you,
Give my gun away when it's loaded.

2007-05-30T01:13:00.000-07:00

http://redromance.blogspot.com

Just needed a change.

2007-05-23T06:12:00.000-07:00

You're just too good to be true
Can't keep my eyes off you
You'd feel like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you

Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
The sight of you makes me weak
There are no words left to speak
But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you

Muse is really amazing.
Somehow, in their own cute high screeching way.

How long more,
Before you let me go.

2007-05-21T05:12:00.000-07:00

Everyone takes pictures of the same kind,
that even the most intricate photography becomes the norm.
Such a sad thing.

I've been on Tvlinks 24/7 ever since exams ended.
Just that some off the movies cannot be downloaded.

Singapore poly netball thingy turned out pretty bad.
The sun was out to kill us,
poor Jiali sprained her ankle,
and some people just didn't bother waking up.
Resulting us to have only 4players,
a "team" without a scorer.
Joy came for the last game,
she looked damn stressed. Hahah.

I don't want to know my results.
Really don't want to.
Can someone eat my papers up?

You learn something everyday,
and today I learnt that mailboxes in Singapore are colourful.
And that I'm just plain stupid.

Who the fuck fails 6subjects for Midyears when she's sec4.
I suspect I'm born stupid.
Either that or I just don't want to blame myself for whatever I 'acheived'

I'm dropping hair like never before.
Am I pregnant?
Omg,
I don't want to have a urine test.
Just thinking about it makes me feel awkward,
even though technically I would be alone.
But.. yeah you get what I mean.

2007-05-20T19:38:00.000-07:00

So my mum bought me 3 books,
- Why true love waits.
- Bloom, growing up girls.
- How to be a good daughter.
Or something like that.
And they're really fat.
But I guess it's worse that she bought 4 books for herself.
On good parenting.
Man, She's really keen on making this work.

I hate having irresponsible friends.
Really.
Ones that are always late,
and think they can get away by shrugging it off.
Ones that live on your money,
and just take your stuff with no signs of gratefulness,
or with any plans on returning them.
Really hate them.
So much for "what are friends for"

2007-05-17T09:19:00.000-07:00

"The way she looked at me with burning rage,
and hate spinning in her eyes,
This was the daughter I brought up.
This was the daughter that didn't love me.
I'm ashamed of myself, the mother that I am today"

Imagine how heart ripping it is for a daughter to hear her own mother to say this.
If you can't,
I wouldn't blame you.
Because hearing that,
I felt a degree of sorrow I never thought I would.
Dramatic it sounds.
But.. sighs.
What the fuck is happening to my family?
Things don't happen like this.
We were supposed to a good, strong family.
With fights that brought us together.
Not ones that would weaken us,
not ones that would break us.

There's two things I learnt today.
If you feel like there's a small problem with your parents today,
it's not going to go away tomorrow,
And trust me, it's time to speak up.
I would know.
It wasn't pleasant,
but it's worth it.

And.
Lan·guish
intr.v. lan·guished, lan·guish·ing, lan·guish·es
1. To be or become weak or feeble; lose strength or vigor.
2. To exist or continue in miserable or disheartening conditions: languished away in prison.
3. To remain unattended or be neglected: legislation that continued to languish in committee.
4. To become downcast or pine away in longing: languish apart from friends and family;
languish for a change from dull routine.

I would be a perfect example.
I'm not trying to be emo,
or sound emo,
or act emo.
But really,
today was quite an eventful day for me,
that caused me to be quite an emotional wreck.
It was sucky,
Indeed.

May may,
So I guess this isn't a happy ending story.
I would write you another one.
I haven't received the letter youknow.
Snailmail isn't the most reliable.
And, still don't get the whole 2dollar thing.
Yeah, Three dimples somemore.

Tlw,
Can I reply you another day.
I have quite a lot of thought I haven't put into words.
I have something for you.

2007-05-15T01:30:00.000-07:00

Coffin of lies.

The bottle of water's so ..
In the way.

I got chased by the security guard for this.

The cat that sleeps in a speaker bag.
Pees in a bottle,
and drinks Jackdaniels for milk.

Pandan cake. Hahah.

Gc gig.

I realise we look so different in sec2.

'05.

Marissa + Merrill.

Mushhrooooom loveeee.

Hahahahah,
Todd looks like shittttt here.

Look at csh and ameliatanmunhui.
Hhahahahahhaha.
Kbox?

2007-05-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

I've been so deprived of pictures,
ever since The camera decided to run away.
Don't you feel anything for the times we had together?!
Huh huh. you stupid fool.

Anyway, these are from sec1,2,3.
Hahaha. I was clearing my folder,
and that explains this.

I misssss youuuu,
and I hope you read this.
Hopefully one day we can hang out again. (:

Sean's.
And Nirvana is so not a night of hot sex.
Todd totally tricked me into believing that.

Don't look at me,
I look like shit.

Okay I look more shit here.

2E'05.
The awesomest. Truly.

The only church activity I was in.
Hahah.

Remember this? Ketamine?

I still smile watching the video of this 2Edance.
Though the prize was prawn crackers,
deceivingly wrapped in expensive crisp gold lining plastic.

This is ancient.
Well, things change.

Borrowing you for 40bucks/hour.
I still can't say its not worth it.

Hahah.
Yes, we're passionate.

Looking at this,
somehow makes me upset.
'06.

Red camera.

I can't remember the last crazy thing I did.
Neither can I rememeber the last time we went out.

We had such a hard time coordinating.
Hah.

Louisa's has the best eyes in the world.
And I would kill to have 'em.
I mean just compare the size.
Dude. Neither was I blessed with dimples.

Taman. 3A (:

Still my eyecandy.
Kuangminh.

3 more papers.
4 more days.
And this is just midyears.
I wish I would get cancer,
and be excused from olevels.

Lick and lock doesn't want me anymore.

2007-05-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

Shall we dance... . ..

2007-04-29T04:14:00.000-07:00

I was going through the old boxes which I neglected for quite awhile,
And boy, I found a whole lot of shit inside man.
From my exloves. Haha.

I had the most from 58.
The red camera, doodles on starbucks tissue,
straws and sugar packets from coffeebean,
my 05ccabooklet, ticket stubs, gobstoppers,
and candy containers.
While she couldn't help her obession for treats,
I couldn't stop my obession for her.
I could still name her Love,
only that love is twoway.

Also, I've neoprints with Gabriel.
Which I look fucking funny.
Hhahahh. We roamed newton alott,
and it was nice.
For his case,
I found mostly guitar related items. Hah.
He played romance de amor for me,
I remember melting to the ground,
though we both just ran through the rain.

There was still alot of other shit ah,
which makes quite a depressive person.
Breakups were never pretty. ):

4 things I want/need to buy.
- watch
- camera
- phone
- rabbit

Some fucker decided to steal my watch.
Fucker you know, real fucker.
It makes it worst that this watch was a gift from my dad,
when we weren't so drifted and apart.
And when he gave me this,
it was the last significant sign of affection I got from him.
Some people need to stop stealing things from me.

I want to play in the rainnn.
May makes it sound fun. Haha.
All my life I've been brought up to avoid the rain.

My family's back from LA.
My sister bought me 6 tops, a vest, a sweater, a belt buckle.
You can bet I love her. Hahah.
And she's ~~probably~~ the reason if I were to go overseas to study.
I have no objections man,
except that I'll be a mix of middle sch and high sch over there.

Vinee's very against the idea of me getting a tattoo.
Hmm, is it really that bad?
Not like I'm getting a damn huge one across my face or something.
I just want a small star at the side of my hand,
though it's arguable that I might regret it.

Sex, bomb, and fire are all going to get eyebrow piercings.
After we leave the sch. Hahaha.
Set mann.

Okay. I just found alot of things to talk about today.
Dance floorrrr.

2007-04-28T06:32:00.000-07:00

So kiss me.

Peer pressure is so evident in my school.
Agree?
Suddenly everyone has bangs.

2007-04-25T05:37:00.000-07:00

What the hell happened?

Sighs, My life is quite a big mess.
And I barely find myself making the effort to untie the knots.

I need to study.
I need to study.
And I need to pass.
And I need to give up on my fairytale dream.
And above all of that,
I need to give up someone I truly want.

Well, Sweet16 my ass.

2007-04-16T04:21:00.000-07:00

You say you don't care,
at the end of the day,
what her heart wants,
still matters to you.

I fancy you.
I could never really undo you.

My hair is growing at a rate of X2.
Uh huh, not good.
Cause my left side is still shortfuck.
And I need to stop cutting for prom.
Hahahaha,
or I could chop it off, and have cool hair for one day.

Anyway,
I doubt I can run 2.4 tomorroww. ):
My thigh muscle is still giving me aches like neverbefore.
I don't know what's wrong with it.
Limsingh says its a torn ligament.
Nat says its a veryveryultra tight muscle.
Whatever fuck it is,
It neeeds to go away.
I have trouble going up the bus.
which I will be doing a lot for the next 10days.

Did I mention my parents are going away for 10days.
Which means I have absolute freedom.
Not to add the money I have safely sleeping in my fatpocket.
But perhaps not for longg.
Whoohoo, 3 cheers for.. me.

I haven't gone shopping in a long time.
And I've ran out of shoes to wearrr. ):
That I keep going back to the comfy ones,
which my mummy says is not nice.
But anway, not like I'm going out much nowadays.
Hmmm, I want a white pullover.

I'm not falling for this one.

2007-04-15T05:45:00.000-07:00

So please tell me you'll stay.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I'm so crazy over Boston by Augustana.
Love man, love.

Happy birthday Chuasihui. (:
Sorry I didn't wish you personally cause I didn't see you.
I guess I should take this chance to thank you.
Hhahaha, for putting up with all my crap.
I think you're the only one that can put up with me.
Sorry for the whole umpiring thing that happened at our last match together.
You really quite form the bulk of Jase,
and 30hour is the last chance we have together.
Remember our dreams okay,
cause I know it's something that will stay in me for pretty damn long.
And you're always the one pulling us together,
asking us to go out and all.
I can truly say,
you're one in a million.

Without you,
I would've lost my way.
I love chuasihui. (:

2007-04-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

So I finally caught 3/4 of Lords of Dogtown.
In my feeble attempt to complete the movie,
I think I deserve a well done this time round.

I just realise how immense Chinatown is.

Cheerleading this year is so irritating.
What the fuck do we need a title for the dance for?!
But anyway, I was so fed up for being so low on creativity today.
You can only guess what I came up with.
1. The brinjal dance.
2. The bomb,
because obviously we couldn't be the sex.
Vinee came up with Superfly.
So yes, this is how we're going to be introduced.
" with that, I now present to you Marie's superfly dance. "
Hahahahahaha, I can image the faces.
So we're supposed to be flies from different countries...
Hmmm..

I want to kiss you underneath the stars.

2007-04-07T22:04:00.000-07:00

I hear the silence but it sounds so strange.

Your kiss is torture,
But killing me would be too easy.

2007-04-06T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hhahaha, the sec1s can be so amusing sometimes.
They make cheerleading a little better.

Hhaha. I still think this picture is so funny.
Look at Mel. Haha.

A fever's the best equipment to use when you want to lose weight.

I can tell you everything you want to hear.
But that is not what your heart wants.

She keeps lying.
And something tells me I don't need her.
Don't bother staying up.
You'd think I'm not worth it.

2007-04-02T06:34:00.000-07:00

Just do it.

Okay.
This has to stop,
and yes,
We need to stop chasing each other's ass.

A has - you - more.
Or B - you less.
I wish I could be Santa.
And have raindeers,
and eat as much chocolate as I want.

Vineeta Nairrr! (:
Hhahah. Thanks for the video man.
It was super sweet,
Andd, I don't remember saying I don't like the song lah.
Well, now I do.
And its permanently stuck in my head.
My birthday, come to think of it now,
was just made 10 times better by you.
I doubt I'll forget my 16th birthday.

You are my only one, only one.

Anything,
I'll let you.

2007-04-01T05:12:00.000-07:00

She's fearless and bold.
She just goes and goes.

Dance dance is such a good song to scream with.

Pufferfish? (:

2007-03-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

I know I've been a real bad girl.
I didn't mean for you to get hurt.
We can make it better.
Now tell me boy,
Wouldn't that be sweet?

2007-03-30T03:16:00.000-07:00

Mel looks so cute. (:
And my lips looks like shit.

I melted and cried.
Can she do the same,
the way you made me?
Somewhere, I know it's there.

Self denial.
Hmmm,
I'm living in self denial.

Getting drunk in school is suddenly a trend.
And trends are silly.

2007-03-26T03:35:00.000-07:00

I hope there's a lesson learnt,
and I hope you can see what you've done.
Sometimes, I want to pry your mouth open.

For everything that could have happened,
I know I will regret this.
As bitchy as this sounds,
I lead a happier life trusting I've done my part.

Now I understand what my dad feels.
When you want something from someone,
and that someone doesn't respond.

Sorry I can't wait for you.
You and you to make up your mind.

You look so good,
and I was madly resisting the urge to tell you I want you.

I need someone to slap me.

2007-03-24T09:41:00.000-07:00

It's about time.

You have this uncanny ability to make me happy.

2007-03-19T04:35:00.000-07:00

I haven't touched the computer in awhile.
And it was the holidays.

Thursday to Sunday was busy.
I somehow cannot stop spending money,
so now i'm left with -10bucks?
Hahah. Sucks.

School reopened,
and I'm not ready to run.
I really considered flunking my o's
so that my parents would completely give up on me.
And then I can go find work,
and then I'll rent a house first.
Spend all my money that I earned,
and then settle down with a rich husband.
Be a good silent taitai.
Okay, so maybe I chose the path of the less resistence,
but really, if i'm slogging shit now,
and I can trade that for a better life,
Why not right?

What's wrong with being a taitai anyway?
Can play mahjong with the aunties,
and can bitch about other aunties,
It's easy to die when you're 30.

I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwww.

Cheerleading is in less than a monthhhh

I can't help but say I miss you.
The whole guy away for awhile thing is really starting to work.
Companion?

2007-03-13T20:06:00.000-07:00

Level9 with fl, kimtan, rahmuna.
See no evil wasn't as bad as I expected it to be.
It was more gory than scary.
Similar to Saw.

Famousamos cookies.
Blackjack at Sasha's house.
The banker won A LOT of money.
From me, she already earned 30bucks.
Yesterday and the day before in total.
It was more fun when Germaine Lynn Jovy came.
Hahah, they're super entertaining.

I realise I can't go down for the hockey match tmr.
And that sucks because I promised myself that I've to go support them at least once.
Sorry hw, fl, wz, fer!

Blackjack's the sex.

2007-03-12T06:28:00.000-07:00

I hate cheerleading.
Seriously.
I would do anything to give up on cheerleading now.
Anything.

I have a big problem controlling the people,
and I think I need help.
So where's my asst when I need one?
Non existent.
This is so comforting.
and I've been talking to myself recently.
I think I'm madddddd.
Because I used to think people who talk to themselves are mad.
Aiyahhh.
Whatever lahhhhhhhhhhhh.

My sister got accepted into USC.
andand the biggest part is that my dad said.
"If you get accepted, then most probably your sister will go too"
your sister = me.
Omg.

Sasha has my esprit sweaterrr. ):
And I realise playgrounds are good to talk.
I'm so broke from cabbing everywhere.

Blackjack later. woo.

2007-03-08T01:52:00.000-08:00

Let's see,
My sun tanning wasn't that productive.
Considering I stayed the same color.
And I didn't cut my hair,
which I so badly wanted to.
So all in all, today is another day wasted.

Maybe I should go for a run,
and get serious about losing weight.
I was being a bim and watching pcd's videos.
And I was thinking to myself.
"Omg, I swear I don't want to die looking the way I look now."
As in, over the years of being fat,
I think I kinda got used to it
and at least tried to make the best of it.
But now it's really really want to change.
Let's forget the fact that "I've been on diet my entire life"
and still end up looking like this.

Okay, I should shut up.

Maymay,
Goodluck for the Commonwealth game! (:

Cheerleading is dead.

2007-03-05T05:02:00.000-08:00

Turns out I'm not the only one having a party.

Just when you feel bad for playing them out,
and try to reach home early
so you don't end up stabbing yourself with your guilty conscience.
Then you find out everyone else is getting laid.

Haha.
Life's a joker,
and sometimes things get out of hand.
I really feel like laughing.

56bucks for Jim Beans to get high,
and that ended up in the drain anyway,
is not that worth it afterall.
And to think I was vexed over you.
Really wasted my time.

Quote from Germaine.
yi ge liang ge dou bu shi hao dong xi.
Omg,
So fucking true.

Expect the unexpected.
Hhahaha. Okay.

2007-03-02T09:30:00.000-08:00

Anything that goes in squence quite appeal to me.

A hiphop dancer with a freakinggg 11cm mohawk.
Love man, Love.

Anywayy, I hope Steph is right.
And that I'll be lucky enough to get in with someone's extra ticket.
Or if not it'll be 77bucks.
Man, this just reminds me of Goodcharlotte's gig.
If only I can have 1/10 of the same companion,
I'll be quite the happiest fatkid on earth.

Happy birthday Mel!
Kbox! Woo!

2007-02-27T01:35:00.000-08:00

Dance like nobody's watching.

You could lose it all in a day.
There's words I never thought I'll hear you say.

I am such a fan of youtube.

2007-02-26T03:27:00.000-08:00

I freaking forgot to write the question number for Lit.
I am Rocker Number1 right.

Haiyah.
3 done, 6 more to go.
Fridayfridayfriday is so appealing.

Detention is SO MUCH fun.
I could have studied ss,
but that just sounds like more fun to me.
BoobieLim snatched my ipod away.

2007-02-24T05:12:00.000-08:00

This is irritating me.
When can you start telling me things?!
Things in depth I mean.
I'm done waiting.
You're just far away.
And it's not like I'm not trying.

4th is better than 5th.

I want mahjong.
Mahjong's the bomb.

And I think Josephgirl is super cute.
Super.
So are we friends?

She cooks good food.
She fags but who cares.
She romantically embarrassing.
She takes the lead.
And she dares to tell me.
Maybe this is a positive change.

2007-02-19T20:51:00.000-08:00

I dreamt that you were in my school,
and we would skip class together.
I dreamt that we would sit on stairs,
and talk about everything from the beginning.
I dreamt that you held my hand,
and that I kissed you.
When I woke up,
I realise how much I wanted you.

Maybe she made you change your mind,
and that I'll never have to initiate again.
I hope the conversation last night was worth how badly it broke my heart.
And I was right,
You were the mistake from the start.
I'm done being a kid.

Marie people are coming over.
I dread school on Wednesday.
And I swear I hope he doesn't tell Kong.

2007-02-19T00:52:00.000-08:00

The cupcake + cookies that Aish made for me.
It was good.
Happy valentine's Joyjuice.

We can't afford to be last.
Go marie!

Hahah, Look at the hairband!
Unicorn horn + Marie.
Absolutely adorable.

And since I'm camera-less.
Sorry for stealing pictures off blogs.

http://stcnetball.blogspot.com/
<3

We should take more pictures together.
Like the whole team.

2007-02-15T21:38:00.000-08:00

All our secrets they are tailored trouble.

I'm an addict for dramatics.
I confuse the two for love.

2007-02-15T05:30:00.000-08:00

This is unglam dignified.
<3 Joyjuice.

I think I look like I cut and paste my face.
Amelia amelia, where have you gone.

2007-02-13T04:54:00.000-08:00

You ran too fast the first stretch,
and you've got nothing left to give in the last.

Before we all fall in the wrong directions,
I suggest you leave me alone.
Don't wait till it's too late.
It was pretty while it lasted.
Thank you,
and I know I'll regret this.
But I'm positive you wouldn't.
I still want you all the same.
And that wouldn't change.

I tell you if I die today or tomorrow,
or somewhere between this time frame,
I'll be in purgatory.

Things I lost in the month of Jan.
- my camera which I have built a special love for.
- the quite new and well taken care of red bottle.
- velvet black notebook.
- primary school class photo.
Sighs.

Don't wish on someone who wouldn't fight for you.

Friends have such a big influence.

This time two years ago,
I was being a bitch.
Hhahahahaha.
But I went for confession.
Imagine telling a priest that you don't know what you are.
Hmm.

2007-02-12T05:53:00.000-08:00

There's too much to end the sentence.

I have such funny friends.

May may! (:
Eh, this is really sweet. Hhah.
Sorry it made you burn yourself and all.
About today,
Don't be sad okay!
You played well, and you still have one more year!
Sorry I couldn't stay longer and support you.
And I can't believe I forgot to bring the calculator,
if only I brought my bag lah!
Hahah.
Anyway, I hope you like the out of shape balloon.

Hhaha, I was looking through my files,
and I found this.
Limp wirst and pins at crotch is pretty funny.
He's standing like he has you know the disease that makes people bow legged?
Yeah that.

2007-02-08T02:46:00.000-08:00

Well, it's time to retire.
Sit back and watch the little kiddies do their thing.
When I look at them,
I realise how alike we are.
Maybe that's why we hate each other.
I should stop being so childish.
I need to remind myself I'm sec4.

House prac used to be more fun.
Now cheerleading is stressing the shit out of me,
and it's just going to get worst for the next two months.
This is even worst than Netball.
Sighs.

I need to catch up.

Maybe we can stop trying.
The buckets too full to fill.
All our efforts and 15cents lies.
There is something better than this.

2007-02-07T05:40:00.000-08:00

Tell me when.

2007-02-05T04:17:00.000-08:00

You want it, you got it.

Swimming swimming.
I had fun.
Aish is pure joy.
And it rubs off on me.

Conclusion :
- Hair looks good underwater.
- Wenna is freakishly cute.
- Aish and Vinee makes my day awesome.

School was. Gross.
Like today was bad to the max.

Cause looking, makes me happy.
Cause you, make me happy.

Hhaha, you're the cow.
You cow.
Monday monday. Go May!

2007-01-31T05:41:00.000-08:00

I want to feel like I know you.

Well, now that that's done,
I can go back to routine.
I feel like something you throw in the washing machine,
and you get tossed around like a lifeless fool.
Life can be so deceivingly beautiful.

Sometimes it's just bad to think.

Sighs,
Perhaps it's even worst when you don't feel anything.
Because when it hits you,
It'll be hard to get over.

2007-01-26T05:31:00.000-08:00

Okay, I feel dead.
Like my limps are barely functionable.

Now I have two ugly ankles.
Gk's need to be more disciplined, I swear.
Especially the Outram one and Adeline.

Did I tell you I loathe Outram.
Yes I know, I'm putting my life at stake by saying that.
I just might get bashed up by angry gangsters who's girlfriends are in Outram netball team.
Or maybe you have friends there
But whatever please,
Everyone could tell the umpires are fuckers.
Hhahaha if you think I'll chill,
you probably should think again.
This is one of the few matches in your life which you so totally omg know that you can win,
and it's just because of some external problems that screwed up everything.

I hate being cliched, but I think I brought this upon the team.
If it wasn't for -, who made - so pissed
that - so badly wanted to -.
Maybe we would have more drive.
and maybe we would have won.
Stupid ahlians,

Anyway, I'm glad we won KCP.
Like really really,
I'd die if we hadn't caught up the last quater.
Hhahaha, so funny lah.
Everyone was like super drama on court in the last quater.
The way Amelia imitated me,
I swear I hope I don't look like that on court. =l
Aish had that super serious face which makes me laugh.
And Jiali was superwoman.
Adeline played unexpectedly well too. (:
I think it was one of our best quaters in a longlonglong time.
Take that, black-egoistic-GA.

One down, 2 to go.

Calculator?
I threw it already.
You didn't catch,
You better wear your ankle guard.
I can lend you if you can't find yours.
Goodluck with nus high!

So turns out,
I don't want gang or band.
Both sounds too overrated for my own good.

Don't pull me into your hurricane.

Something corporate
Takingbacksunday
is still my daily medication for stress relief.
When will I get over myself dudesxzsxzxs.

Come over here,
and help me take this off.

Happy Birthday Limmy. <3

I think you look hot here.
And that tee over you is possibly the sexiest thing I can get on you.
Memorable indeed.
Maybe you can be my first customer when I become a stripper.
I'd let you bring Vinee. Hhaha.

2007-01-19T05:05:00.000-08:00

1. I did not get beaten up.
Just because my cheeks are rosier than before,
and redder under my eye,
does not mean I got beaten up.
And, do I really look like I will get into that kind of trouble?

2. Monday is stressday.
Buy me stressballs,
cause I'll need them.
I even planned to wear my lucky sb on that day.

3. Monday Tuesday Wednesday could be wonderful.
Means the possibility of it not being wonderful,
still exist.
But it's good enough.
Someone send me to school?
I cannot imagine waking up at 6.

Maybe you could put a band in a gang.
Or a gang in the band.
Hmmm.

I can give her all to you,
and it matters.
I just hope you don't screw it up.
I'm not trying to make things difficult,
I certainly want this game to go well.
So maybe we can stop passing stares.

4. I lost my camera.

2007-01-15T00:35:00.000-08:00

One has a band,
the other has a gang.

When you put it this way,
deciding seems easy.
If it was that theoretical,
It wouldn't have any affairs with the heart.
I could use some help just about now.

Major funerals for all the angels that died.
I'm sorry.
You know.

And if you happen to mention that
"Life's like that"
I'll slap you silly.

Doc to me : Do you wear cosmetics around the eye area?
Mum to doc : No she doesn't.
Doc to me : You sure you don't?
Mum to doc : She's sure.

Well, I guess the doc doesn't really have to know.
And maybe Just maybe, I'll never get better.

Happy birthday Ollie Nollie!
Hhahah, you've been such a darling.
And you're the first amongst us to be 16!
I still feel excited for you.
Sorry I didn't go with you all to vivo and cut the cake.
And spend your sweet 16.
Oh, and I think the butterflies pretttyy.
Come on nat! Lets go eat ban mian.

Outram, KuoChuan, Guangyang, Fairfield.
I'm getting nervous already.
And I realise that they need umpires from schools.
Hmm, what's that mean?

2007-01-13T06:12:00.000-08:00

They're so photogenic,
don't you think?

Today,
I realised that I have to apply for IB programme to enter School of the Arts.
Which means I guess my hopes of going overseas is dashed.
Which also means that I have to compete with the other 2000 student cohort who applies for secondary level in 2007 to get the 5% diploma.
Which means whenif I get in,
My portfolio is gona suck biggggg time.
Do you have any idea how my life is going downhill?
And trust me, I'm not being emo on this.

Maybe I should become a stripper,
that would be just so much easier.
And at the same time,
fufill Vinee's and Limsingh's prediction of the future.
Doesn't sound that bad right.

Conversation with Vineeta.
I know what I'm going to get you for your birthday.
What?
I'm going to buy you 10 counseling sessions.
Hhahhah, Yes I think I'll need it.
Yes, I think so too Mo.

Well, she never fails to make me smile.
Even if that means she thinks I'm totally mental.
Ts fr eg ve, we ty kk as.
Ha, Lub Lubxx.

2007-01-10T00:56:00.000-08:00

It out, or I'm out.

Okay, lets see.
Apparently,
- I have a boyfriend in Kentridge,
- I'm cheap,
- I'm too young that you think I won't understand.

And I also don't know who these people are.

Am I making sense?

I feel relieved.

2007-01-05T06:06:00.000-08:00

School makes me sigh.
Angels have dropped and died.
Yes Vinee, died.

I miss 1e.
Seems like not long ago we were sitting before the fire
worried whether we're cool enough to fit in.
Whether we'll make friends with the girl beside you.
Shaken to the last nerve with what Secondary school life holds for us.
Campfire night 3 years ago was sure memorable for me.
Though being a newbie in an IJ school,
I could already catch their overwhelming sense of belonging to well yeah the ij family.
With the influence of all the BukitTimah and Kellock friends,
I began to love ij. Woo.

IJ friendships through the years
Born of simple joy and tears
Something tells us deep inside
IJ friends are friends for life

Hhahaha, Okay I'm being funny now.
Not funny funny,
Weird funny.

Pohyingmin, Linhui and Debbo came back today!
Hhahah, it feels good to see them again.

And you know what I was thinking before school starts,
maybe school wouldn't be that bad because since SZ is coming,
there's probably going to be hell loads of training and netball stuff.
But nooooooooo,
Obviously, I have been seriously misled.
You know for once, I might agree with Yanling,
It's totally useless to train already anyway.
Well, I feel like such a bitch for saying all these things even though you all probably already know it and its somewhere in you.

Okay enough.

2007-01-04T03:58:00.000-08:00

Hmm, you'll figure it out soon.
Iron Twig, Twig Iron.

Cause sometimes we sit in our hearts.
I have so much,
But nothing to say.
Why?
Because we never bothered.

2007-01-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

I think the * people use nowadays is funny.
* dies on spot
* jumps around madly.
* runs in circles.
Pft, too sillly for digestion.
Think about it.

Because sometimes I forget how good you look,
and how anxious you make me feel.
And because I have 74 pictures of you,
I think it's time I say hello.
The unexpected has been really nice to me.

Mum's agreed to bring me shopping,
But I feel like going out with wong.
Ahhh, Am I too late garage band king?!

I am a bitch today.
I'm selfish and sorry.
Giving up friends for sleep is not one of my proudest acts.

4am at Esplanade.
We could have found beauty,
and I could have wished for more.

Don't you think that sometimes you should be the one texting me home?
I do.
I think about that alot.
Everything that supposedly has your name on it,
inevitably has transformed itself
I'm sorry too.

2006-12-30T12:56:00.000-08:00

She stared at the world with so much angst,
it became beautiful.

Thanks Ian for the card.
Cactus?

I still choose to believe we won,
or at least drawed.
Considering Lamxinni played for us,
and we were so not a team.
Boo fl, you suck.
After making me walk so much!
Its about time you woke up early for me.
I swear it's captain's ball.
If Lam can, Why not you?!
Hockey people are so unmotivated.
With the exceptions of Yingying and a few others.

Suntec crytal jade,
spent a total of 12bucks on the basketball shooting game at the arcade.
Still cannot beat the high score.
119 only!
Just goes to show how much I've deproved.
Or maybe the Pasir ris one is lousy.
It's fun, I want to play again.
Where is Chuasihui!
You know, I hate to admit it but,
Lam is pretty rocker at shooting.
We should have just let her try Gs,
and I could have played Gk!

Ohyeah, I saw Adeline!
But she doesn't recognise me anymore.
Hha, and she has a new girlfriend.
Tsktsk.

Ended up not watching the 11/1130 show,
and played mahjong with Shanna and the rest.
We were such losers,
considering Sasha didn't win once,
and Shanna only knew how to pung.
I won once.
Clarice and brother is proszsx man.
Talking about her brother,
I actually thought he was a butch.
Afterall, there isn't much difference between him and the other 3himhers.
Come my house and steal all my food only!
Make me walk all alone at 2am, crazy people.

I know you worry about me,
But I know what I'm doing.
Thank you for calling, friend.

Anyway,
I think it's time I did something about my room.
It's a maze, and you can barely make it out.

My lovely cousins are gone,
and now I'm going to Oc the night.
Byebye I'll miss you.

Happy Birthday Dad.
Finally bought you a present which you seemed to like.
You're most welcome.

When we're here,
I know we're not alone.

2006-12-17T14:07:00.000-08:00

Okay, I had the whole part4 posted up and captioned nicely,
and I just HAD to go want to put the JT video in,
which totally messed up everything,
that blogger bitchyly couldn't take it,
and deleted the WHOLE FUCKING POST.
Okay, yes chill I will.

Anyway,
Yes, Justin Timberlake's My love video is rocker.
The dance is ----------,
I have no word for it.
Hhahaha.

Which reminds me,
I have to get started on cheerleading
Damn,
I wish I didn't have to.
Don't get me wrong,
I love dance,
I just hate the stress.
And I choose to believe next year is no different than the previous 3 years.

Sec1 was Charlotte's year.
Champions, needless to say.
I remember practising like crazzyyyyyyyy,
and you know when you're still in sec1,
suddenly you win something,
it was pretty memorable.
And I didn't have commitment problems,
because we didn't take part in southzone,
so there wasn't much training which I had to miss anyway.
We were all so hyped up on that day,
and everything was so well planned,
and not last minute.
Everyone knew the steps and timings.
There was quite alot of pressure though.
Hhahaha, since it was Charlotte's last year in stc.
The lower sec made a pact to win it for her. =D
And we did, eventually.
Yupp, didn't lose my voice,
but screamed like MAD when they announced who was first.
I like sec1. A lot.

Sec2 was Racial Harmony dance.
I just watched the video a few days ago.
Still makes me smile.
Choreographing, stressing, rushing, blistering and bitching with the elizabeth people.
Man, I miss 2E.
This dance, I lost my voice.
Hhahahah, practised like mad too.
Every single free time we had inbetween classes,
We were like playing the song in our heads,
and dancing out the whole thing.
Well at the end of the day,
it was all worth it.
Though the 1st prize was sucky,
We loved the title all the same.
Hhahah,
I think this dance got 2E so bonded.
And I was pretty sad when 2005 ended.
Ohwell, we're the last 2e stc will ever have.
I guess that's good enough for me.

Cheerleading, that year was quite dead.
I was more into Racial Harmony Dance than cheerleading.
Hhahaha, so yes considering the members,
and who I was working with,
I quite expected to not get 1st.
Oh and that our stunts didn't work out.
Stacy fell, and I can't remember.
I thought we would have gotten last place lah!
My first year being in commitee, then so screwed up.
Anyway, I was pretty satisfied with 2nd place.
But I cried anyway.
Hahaha I remember I was on the way to town in the cab.
And I was still weeping like someone died.
Hhahaha, super funny.
But that year I had ---- to cheer me up,
so I was fine after a while. =D

Then there's netball in Sec2!
Cdiv05!
Oh god, fought a whole lot with Danica.
Hhahahaha, not verbally.
But I miss her you knowww,
everything will be fine if she would just take us again.
There was a period of time,
I was nuts over netball.
Like seriously,
everyday was training training.
Before school, during recess, after school.
Saturdays and once or twice on sunday.
Southzone, it paid off.
Played and won schools which I didn't think we would be able to.
All because of that chickennehneh selfish ulu school,
we had to stop at top16,
It was because of that ONE freaking game.
or else we would have made it into top8 nationals you knoww!
Again, Cried like some mad woman.
I think 11/12 of us was crying on the bus,
that we all fell asleep by the time we reached school.
If I wasn't so bummed out,
I would have thought that was funny. Hhaha.
Omg, but we got trophy anyway,
so doesn't matter. Hhahaha.
Then JASE formed! (:

Sec3,
Cheerleading was kickass.
Hhahahah, had such a lousy time teaching the sec1s to Dance.
Like seriously,
they were like bricks or sticks.
or whatever that doesn't move,
or rigidly when it does.
Had so many problems with the other houses,
Made Sam cry, Made some of the other cheer captains cry,
I don't think I cried though,
Hhaha I just got emotional.
I was more pissed than upset. Hhah.
The situation was so like the one in Bring it on1.
Well, now we know who our friends are.
Was quite high strung lah, had so much to stress about.
Hhaha.
Sam drank from the trophy!
I'm so serious, hahaha,
at Swensens.
That was how much we wanted to win.
Yay! Marie took back 1st place.

I can't remember much from Southzone in 2006.
Didn't win much,
and that was the end.
Hha, Why?
Because we didn't have Danica.
Or rather we didn't have a coach to begin with.
But I was more into the netball world in sec3,
hahah I sound like a freaak.

2007,
Cheerleading,
we're so going to rock.
And zhihui and I will make sure of that.

Hhah aims for Netball.
Hopefully top4 in Southzone,
and then top10? Hhahaha.
Well we did become something from nothing in sec2.
Why not right? =D
Its our last year bdiv!
We have to!

Hhahaha.
I love dance.

2005-06-22T10:59:00.000-07:00

I’m alone, so I won’t turn out like you want me to.

2005-06-14T11:21:00.000-07:00

why do i even bother?
plans are still, and rotting.
i dont know what to do.
i guess its a good thing,
what you're doing to me i mean.
its makes it a million times better.
and easier.
i know i need to.
hanwei asked me something quite long back,
which got me think abit.
seriously, now i don't know.
i've lost my answers in the mist.
even if they were kept,
maybe i qont understand them anymore.
could this be a turning point?
yes, i will make it one.
its hard to see the rocks laid ahead,
we'll never know until we go.
so its final.
kill me, but i feel SO MUCH BETTER already.
wow, this works.

testing.

2005-06-04T00:28:00.000-07:00

testing testing testing.
shit man.
i hate fixing templates.